Today I pulled out an old spiralbound notebook that I had used in school, which I have a tendency to use as journals. I've got all these notebooks with random things in them, some have dates, some don't. I opened it to write some thoughts down and instead, I started looking through it. I found an old entry of a time I went to a ropes course. It's one of those team building things where you do various obstacle courses. Not my favorite thing. But it did bring back some old memories. One being that I really do have the courage to face my fears and do hard things.
I accept some things in life are coincidences; but not this. It really was an answer to a prayer - not the one I expected and certainly not in the way I expected - but an answer nonetheless. It reminded me that EVERY ordinary person is capable of extraordinary things. I took the time to do more introspection and I learned many things about myself and my relationship with my Father in Heaven. I identified a cycle that I fall into and that helped me identify some of my major pitfalls that lead to a lot of frustration.
Two of the things I know I need to work on right now are combating negative thoughts and not worrying so much about what other people think of me (yes, still working on this one!). These are not mutually exclusive, but they do seem to show up a lot together.
I learned one other thing: This is why we have journals!!
2 comments:
One thing I have learned about fears came from my kids. My kids are so different about fears, one tackles head on, the other scoots around it and then tackles it. I think both are great. We all have fears, but handle them differently. I don't think that is necessarily bad either. As long as we are willing to learn and not let them stop us. You will get there Micah, I can tell. You aren't willing to let them stop you. You just have to scoot around it first, then tackle. You will be great, because you are!!
I love your drawing...I have almost the same vision in my head sometimes.
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