So I turned in my application last Monday for Grad School. I find out in a couple of months if I got in... I feel good about it and I don't want to jinx it, still, I decided my best position is to be cautiously optimistic.
My classes this semester are great! I am taking Hearing Disorders, Speech Science, and Language Development. The only downside is that they are back to back, which means I am in class for 5 hours straight!! I love school, but even I have my limits. Oh well, it's only 4 months, right? Anyway, the classes are great and I am one semester closer to reaching my goals. This means that if I get in to grad school, I start this Fall and in two years my life is different.
I can't tell you how happy I am! There are moments when I feel that I am a "late bloomer." All of the friends I grew up with are married with children and I sometimes wonder if I am just too far behind the curve. But I think of two things that bring me comfort: I am not the same man I was a few years ago, and the Lord knows me.
What I mean by that is that I have had some battles that have direcly affected my sense of identity. There are many things that the challenges I've had in life have taught me and I wouldn't trade those lessons for anything. I used to be so afraid of everything. I used to have the worst self-esteem. But now I like myself. Now I can accept myself for who I am and I can "forgive" myself for not being perfect. I love who I am right now BECAUSE I'm a work in progress.
Also, I remember (and continue to learn) that the Lord knows me. He knows, not only what I need, but WHEN I need it. He is perfect, his plan is perfect and intervenes in my life perfectly. Because I know those things, I have confidence that I am exactly where I need to be. Late bloomer or not, I am doing the best I've ever done and I have the Lord to thank.
