Infinity

Infinity is a difficult concept for me to understand. Infinite. Never ending.

I was struck several months ago at something someone said in a talk at church. It wasn't even the main part of their talk; it was practically just said in passing, but it struck a chord with me. They were talking about how Heavenly Father is infinite and all that he possesses is infinite - then they said, "...He has infinite attention."

I suddenly thought of all the prayers I had prayed where I approached Heavenly Father as if I were bothering him; as if I were intruding; or as if I were taking him away from more important things going on in the world, etc. After all, why would he have time for my petty problems compared to the turmoil going on in various parts of the world?

But then to hear the he has infinite attention; I suddenly realized that I was projecting all of my own insecurities on him. I approached him as if I weren't worth his time, because I felt I had no worth. I approached him apologetically for bothering him, because I didn't believe I was worth bothering about. And so on and so on...

Yes, there is turmoil in the world. Yes, some people are going through trials and challenges that are "more important" than mine. How can he have time for me? Because he is infinite. And he has infinite attention. Which means he has infinite attention for me. That changed the nature of my prayers and how I approach him. It also changed how I see myself - at least, it showed me how I have been seeing myself and how I need to change that.

I still don't really understand infinity, but I understand that my father in heaven loves me and has time for me because I am important to him - infinitely important...

Personal Best!

I've been trying to walk more over the last couple weeks since the weather here has been awesome! Last week I walked 19 (continuous) miles in one day! I was so sore, but it was worth it. I loved being outside - the sun was shining, but it wasn't too hot; it was just perfect! I was able to see some things I had always wanted to see and since I love exploring, that was just as much fun as anything. Not sure if my school/clinic schedule will let me keep doing that, but I'm going to keep walking as often as I can this summer!